22 June 2012 @ 03:42 am
just a few more months, and i'd have been gone a year. funny how things backfire. been jumping around a bit -- made a wordpress and a tumblr and a whatever else is out there, but i can never stay anywhere too long. i get restless on the internet. i found myself kind of missing this place. was wondering how some of you were doing and ended up reading back a few months, checking to see who's still alive and who's disappeared, like me --

i sort of fell into this whole KEEP REVISING AND NEVER POST ANYTHING thing, with all the important things being shoved into another email draft or another random text file or just lost somewhere in my head -- not even because they're things i don't want to share (actually, there are some things i probably need to share more than anything else), but because it'd take too long to explain the context and if i try to get started i fall back into revising and revising because no matter how i say it it'll never make sense.

SO I KNOW I PROMISED OVER A YEAR AGO THAT I'D WRITE ABOUT GENDER SOME DAY. i probably will, eventually, but it won't come with any explanations. which is okay, i guess. it's more for myself to put something out there than anything. having something out in the public sphere just feels more liberating, even if i know nobody's reading it, i guess? i haven't given out the address of my wordpress or tumblr at all, haha. but at the same time, i feel an obligation to make anything i post to the public understandable to any random stranger who stumbles by. i know i don't need to, but i think that urge has been holding me back and just

screw that

it'll take me some time to build up the habit again and i'm not going to promise myself anything but

i'm going to try and make this place like my email drafts and fill it with all the random mindpoop i poop out because i poop a whole lot ARE YOU READY FOR THIS
mood: energetic
location: United States, Connecticut, Middletown
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[identity profile] thrives.livejournal.com on June 22nd, 2012 11:09 am (UTC)
livejournal is the most best forever. or...well I do dreamwidth more. meh.

revisions are lame, write what you feeellllllllll

anddddddddd I AM READY
[identity profile] pyrotol.livejournal.com on June 23rd, 2012 10:48 pm (UTC)
haha yeah, like half the posts i found were crossposted from dreamwidth... :S if they're similar enough maybe i should do the same, hmmm.
[identity profile] inquisitory.livejournal.com on June 25th, 2012 03:37 am (UTC)
Glad to see you posting again, Jessie! I've been in and out of LJ over the past year as well and I'm still not as active as we all used to be, but I agree that it's a good place to dump thoughts and I look forward to having the opportunity to read yours as well :)
[identity profile] pyrotol.livejournal.com on June 26th, 2012 04:27 am (UTC)
thanks! :) it's good to see you still around! it's strange to see so many people gone, haha. but also kind of strange to see all the people still around, since it's like EVERYONE'S ALL GROWN UP ssdlfjghdfg so much nostalgia wow
[identity profile] inquisitory.livejournal.com on June 29th, 2012 05:40 am (UTC)
Likewise!! I agree, it's so crazy thinking about how we all used to be, what we wrote in the ~heyday of LJ~ and how far we've come :) oh man, the days of icontests and checking LJ religiously every day after school askldfajsh
[identity profile] my-blog.artistcat.ru on June 27th, 2014 09:38 pm (UTC)