15 March 2013 @ 01:13 am
currently the hyggeligt-est. i haven't posted anything since just arriving in copenhagen, though i have since gone to sweden, russia, turkey, austria, greece, germany, paris, the czech republic, belgium, the netherlands, back home again, back to school, back home again, back to school, and am now up in montreal sitting in the kitchen of a small apartment a few of my friends have rented for our spring break. there's so much to write about, but as always when that happens i never know where to start and end up not writing anything at all.

earlier this semester a friend of mine held a small event in the westco cafe where he invited any of his friends to come hear all his semester abroad stories at once so that he wouldn't have to repeat them all fifty times each time he ran into someone. he's a funny guy and a good storyteller, so it was actually a pretty great event, with some pretty interesting and surreal experiences. though i don't think i'll be holding any sort of massive semester abroad storytelling gathering any time soon, maybe i can get a few stories down in a similar style.

i do keep a tiny log of my daily goings-on -- literally just a list of all the things i do every day, nothing i find worth sharing, really -- but i do miss having this. maybe i'll start posting my log here. it'll be fairly boring, but i can expand on things once in a while? i'm just not very good at keeping this up anymore, but i keep gravitating back towards it somehow -- i've been thinking of starting a blog hosted on my personal domain and not giving away the url for a few months, just so i can feel a bit freer there, but it's probably just like all the notebooks i buy. i buy really nice ones and get really excited about them and use them for a few weeks before forgetting about them, but the one that i keep going back to is my completely falling apart marble notebook i've had for years.

in any case, today, in summary:

ismet, kiko, and i all slept in fairly late. in the end we left kiko behind to sleep some more, while the rest of us decided to make use of the last day of our metro passes to go to the museum of contemporary art. i can sort of be into abstract art sometimes but they had a whole exhibit on abstract art and there were a LOT of just plain red canvases? there was this one super cool exhibit, though -- it was a bunch of dark hallways and the space was pretty cool (and it was apparently based on something related to tycho brahe, who immediately makes anything awesome), but my favorite part were these paintings done in the style of 16th- and 17th-century paintings only with stuff like eclipses and auroras and weird sci-fi elements.

ismet and i discussed our fictional supervillain, "the inconvenienator": he stands in front of metro car doors so that you JUST miss the train! he deletes the contacts on your phone! he causes power outages right as you're almost done with your paper! he takes your keys and throws them really far away (he doesn't steal them -- just throws them really far away)! he sometimes spills things in the kitchen!!

we stopped back at the apartment to check on kiko and drop off our things, then headed out again to look for bagels. apparently pat had found some place said to have the best bagels in canada, so we took a trip there JUST for the bagels, though it was freezing cold and i don't think it was really worth walking for about an hour? I GUESS THE BAGELS WERE OKAY but i'm from new york so they weren't really anything special, uhhh. on the way back ismet and i stopped by some place near the apartment to grab kebabs and shawarma, and we also got free baklava!

it was way too cold outside, so we ended up just hanging out for the rest of the night playing poker. we've decided to go to toronto next week, but we haven't completely decided where to stay yet, so i sent out a few couchrequests. there's a really cool-sounding vegan co-operative in toronto, so i'm hoping they'll be available for us to hang out with -- i think it could be pretty awesome. :)

GOOGLE READER IS SHUTTING DOWN?? AAAAAAAA I CAN'T my whole life is on google reader what do i do

ismet: "i want to be in a laid-back work environment."
kiko: "what does that mean?"
ismet: "i want to do work. but only half the time."
mood: mellow
location: Canada, Montreal
28 August 2012 @ 01:07 am
ended up skimming through my old journal to look for some information and DUDE I POSTED SO MUCH. LIKE, EVERY DAY ALL THE TIME SOMETIMES MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY. i posted often enough that i'm using it to go back and figure out what i was doing summer 2006, IT'S SO COHESIVE AND I'D NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THAT NOW which is kind of sad (though i actually do keep a really boring log of what i do every day, except WHY DON'T I JUST POST THAT HERE sigh).

it's probably because i was less blugh and didn't overthink everything. so for the past few weeks i've been wanting to post something about my buying some girl clothes in taiwan and my mom mistaking femme-positivity for femaleness (and also femaleness for non-maleness) and other genderthings but i don't really want to come back to lj and just post GENDERTHINGS EVERY DAY and also it takes too long and then i realized i've been in denmark for over a week so i should probably mention that i am studying abroad in denmark and will be here for four months or so.

copenhagen is beautiful and small and cozy, and the weather recently has been the perfect mix of cooler-than-taiwan-but-still-clearly-summertime, though it probably won't stay that way for long and i should really buy some warmer clothes because i didn't bring many other than the thirty-seven pocket jacket i used to smuggle an extra twenty pounds of carry-on.

been switching around my classes a lot, so now i'm somehow taking eighteen credits -- seven classes total -- and also being a student photographer for the media team and also hanging out at a nearby games workshop and also trying to participate in every activity ever.

i think my need to fill up my schedule stems from a lack of friends and therefore a lack of anything else to do, maybe. i had applied to live with a host family, but ended up getting placed with two "danish" apartmentmates who are actually from california and in total only 1/4 danish. they are super nice and all but not only had i kind of wanted to meet some danish people, i've also realized that i often feel especially awkward meeting people my own age and actually have a decent amount of anxiety about my awkwardness and lack of ability to make friends as readily as other people seem to, all of which was for the most part hidden by my very close circle of friends in high school and has come out more and more in the past few years as i find myself in various situations where i don't know anyone and suddenly have to make new friends except i don't know how to.

my dad suggested my visible androgyny might be scaring away potential friends, which i completely dismissed last year -- partly because i thought it was silly and partly because i figured if someone didn't want to be friends with me because i'm visibly androgynous then that'd be their problem -- but honestly it might be a bit more complicated than that, especially combined with me just being fairly quiet and awkward in general.

i don't know -- it's not that i can't make friends. i usually do, after some time. my general tactic is to pick one or two people and follow them around until either the mere exposure effect kicks in or they tell me to get lost, which has actually worked pretty well for me so far except for a few times when i haven't been completely sure at what point i should stop following someone before i get too creepy. i guess i'm optimistic in that i'm pretty sure i will have some decent friends by the end of my time here. but at the same time i have way too much trouble thinking about the future, which is nice because i don't worry about it but also means i don't tend to look forward to it much (the vague parts, at least), either.

honestly, i just want someone to eat dinner/watch movies/play games with (board, video, card -- doesn't matter), kind of like the first two weeks of summer -- i'd just go to ismet's room every day and we'd watch community then either order pizza or pick a random restaurant to try, then go back and watch more community or a movie or play battlefield or plan a surprise trip to florida or do a scavenger hunt or light fireworks or go look for cats or THIS IS WHY I CAN'T WRITE THINGS ANYMORE, BECAUSE I ALWAYS GET TOO INTROSPECTIVE AND THINKY. I DON'T EVEN LIKE THINKING, I HAVE SO MUCH MORE FUN WHEN I DON'T THINK ABOUT THINGS AT ALL sob. I'M NOT USUALLY LIKE THIS, LJ JUST GETS A DISPROPORTIONATE AMOUNT OF IT... i have trouble writing about myself because as i write i often realize that something i said earlier may have been wrong but maybe not wrong and it's all just me trying to pull together observations i've made and i don't know why i get so concerned about being WRONG about myself in public but i guess once it's out there it's there and people can read it and that's a scary thought.

well anyway one of my classes is a creative travel writing class and i think i have to keep a journal or something which will probably be more digestible than all this brainpoop (though that was actually a pretty satisfying brainpoop and my brainbowels are nice and empty now and i feel a lot better).

this entry was really difficult to concentrate on writing due to the sound of my apartmentmate having really hot sex next door.

apparently "bye" in danish is just "hi" twice. "hej hej."

hej, jeg hedder jessie. jeg studerer kunst og astronomi på wesleyan men jeg studerer sociologi på dis. jeg cykler ikke, jeg går og tager bussen eller metroen. jeg har et spørgsmål. det ved jeg ikke. jeg taler ikke dansk.
location: Denmark, Copenhagen
mood: blah
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