oh hey vamps is going to be at nyaf. guess that means i'll definitely be seeing them again. (AND MAYBE GETTING THE OTHER AUTOGRAPH I MISSED FFFFF) speaking of concerts, miyavi on sunday. i still haven't gotten around to actually LISTENING to his music but i'm sure it'll be a fun show anyway hahaha

DONE WITH SENIOR OPTIONS, not going to bother posting the other journals since i bs'd them at like four in the morning and emailed them to ms. earle, so i don't really need to post them, and the whole thing is a bunch of crap anyway;;;

went to urban madness' waterfight this past saturday, MAD MAD FUN. photos are on facebook (which you are all welcome to add me on, by the way) and video is here, bla bla bla bla. went to dinner afterwards with nanaryuu, ketsune, and susan. was pretty cold most of the time since i didn't really dry off but food was good and we had cake and i shot everyone with my water gun.

another to do list now that i'm done with everything school-related (graduation tomorrow!):
- reinstall windows (again;;;)
- mix (aria08/oc01), record (krist08)
- art reqs
- sell stuff/save money
- clean desk/room
- look into computers for next year
- domain?

holy shit yesterday was the most amazing day
i love my friends
i love my girlfriend
(i have a girlfriend)
i love everyone

ok first, international day. was supposed to meet up with ms. earle earlier in the day but i woke up late so i ended up getting there about ten minutes before it actually started. had to use the huge bulky camera since my dad took the good one, but it was kind of cool because i had to wear it around my neck and it made me feel totally professional even though it actually sucks. THEY HAD A YO-YO BALLOON FISHING THING THIS YEAR and that made me ridiculously happy since i haven't seen one of those in i don't know how long. rebecca and ruri worked at the gyotaku booth for a bit, though i didn't really hang around there much since it was kind of boring. there was some booth selling like foreign soda which looked like REALLY RETRO and really nasty and rusty but also really cool, so i payed $1 for just the bottle and then dumped out the actual soda since it didn't look sanitary. met with ms. earle briefly to go over senior options stuff, then went to see kyara getting dunked in the senior dunk tank. i had wanted to sign up for it but i forgot, but after hearing kyara shrieking about how cold it was i felt a bit better hahaha.

ben's mom gave us all these idk OGRE MASK THINGS that were really cool looking so we ran around with those for a bit and then rebecca dragged me off, resulting in me officially having a girlfriend kind of. seems like a bit of a regression from having a fiancée, except it's real this time and i actually have a real girlfriend like for real and i don't really know what to think because i don't actually get it? but hey. it's a good thing, right? i guess it doesn't really matter what it entails, but i feel pretty cool so i guess that's good. she's sleeping over sunday night and then we're going to the city with kyara and nanaryuu, so i'm looking forward to that. we are both total noobs at this so uh it'll probably be kind of extremely awkward but that's ok hahaha idk i'm sure i'll have a lot to say eventually

went home to a computer that no longer runs windows, so i ended up playing around with linux for a bit. using linux makes me feel really cool even though i have no idea what i'm doing. rebecca says i'm now allowed to be a prick about os which i feel like being except i'm still so used to windows and will probably keep using it once it's fixed (though maybe i'll see about slowly moving over)

laramie project at 7:00. it was good. amazing, really. kind of makes me wish i'd done it too, but being able to watch everyone was also a great experience. andre was fantastic. kyara was fantastic. isaac was fantastic. adrian was fantastic. everyone except maybe a few were amazing, and even the subpar actors didn't really ruin anything. there were a lot of people i had either not known could act or had seen in previous roles and thought they couldn't really act but i was really, really impressed with the whole thing and it was fucking ridiculous. also random but i coincidentally found out right before going to see the show that jeremy davies played jedadiah schultz in the movie (which i went and watched today and saw amy madigan as reggie and i was like JAAAAAANE)

grace had called earlier to see if i wanted to watch iron man 2 after the show, so in the end we got ross and kyara and andre and rebecca and grace and we all went to watch it. it was actually not that bad considering the bad reviews i'd heard. it wasn't AMAZING but it was FUN and that's all that i really wanted. we got a shitton of popcorn and it made me feel american. after we finished andre runs up to us and is all THERE'S A SHOWING OF ROBIN HOOD STARTING LIKE RIGHT NOW. LIKE... RIGHT NOW. except grace and i ran in and realized that it had just finished, not just started. we figured we'd stick around and sneak into the next show, but rebecca had to go home so kyandre left to drive her and we were supposed to help them sneak back into the theater when they were back. but then i checked and realized there was no showing of robin hood after this one, so i called them and they said they'd go home. so that left me, ross, and grace, and we decided we didn't want to fucking go home.

so. three high school seniors at 1:00 am in may. fuck you, we're not going to any fucking bars or anything, we're going to fucking PATHMARK. except it closed like two minutes after we got there so in the end we spent about an hour running around in an empty parking lot blasting music and talking about i don't even know what awesome stuff, and WE PROBABLY LOOKED TOTALLY HIGH which is why at one point a police car actually drove over to check on us, except we were only high on life which is legal, i think.

FUCKING FUCK I JUST REINSTALLED MY OS WHY AM I GETTING THIS FUCKING BSOD AGAIN AAAAAAA
linux still works so i guess i'll use that for now (i should probably take some time to play around with it anyway) but i can't even load up windows to get my stuff and what is this :|

ALSO HNNNNNNNGH KOJIMA IS GOING TO BE IN THE CITY ON THE DAY OF MY PROM I WANT TO GO I WANT TO GOOOOO

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party at alissa's today for her and sharon's birthday. i'd write about it in detail but i'm tired and won't be sleeping much tomorrow night, so i'll just say it was a lot of fun and yeah i am going to sleep now good night

( DAY 04 )

have to get a blood test tomorrow and this is freaking me out. gore and death and blood and pain are 5862% ok but having a needle stuck in my arm just FREAKS ME OUT (specifically in the vein -- anywhere else is 935% fine, it's just the vein that bothers me). i mean hopefully having to deal with it will help me get over it, since i haven't had blood drawn in around eight years and it's probably just the traumatizing memory of TRYING TO JUMP OUT THE WINDOW AND BEING PINNED DOWN that doesn't really help. my mom also told me that when i was around four i had to get blood drawn but for some reason it wasn't coming out right so they had to get some kind of instrument to push/SCRAPE MY VEIN and yeah i am really not looking forward to this. were it not for the lasting consequences i'd almost rather cut off my hand and have them get my blood that way I WOULD BE CONSIDERABLY MORE COMFORTABLE WITH THAT.

( DAY 02 )

had lunch at school today. everyone's all paranoid about snap, which is fairly amusing to watch. looks like rebecca'll come over again this friday and we'll watch all the movies she missed last friday, which is fine by me -- i'll never watch infernal affairs enough. might stick a few more movies in, like pulp fiction and saving private ryan, just because we've been meaning to watch them together.

broke my BACKUP BACKUP headphones so now i have nothing ffff

papayas

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lol i don't really have a reason for using this wallpaper, i just needed a wallpaper that went with my desktop and this one looked good. i've had it since i reinstalled my os, so maybe it's about time to change to a new one.


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need to keep a daily journal as part of my senior options project, so i'll just be posting it all here.

( DAY 01 )

i am done with high school. completely. forever. weirdest feeling. i've been trying to make myself feel sentimental about the whole thing because it seems like i should be, but it really isn't working. i don't really know how to be sentimental ffff

well, i've still got senior options, several projects to finish, and over a month until graduation, so technically it's not REALLY over yet, but -- i never have to go to a real class again. unless senior slave day counts.

SO BASICALLY since i finished high school forever, i have watched four movies and six tv episodes (about 11 hours total). SIGH THIS IS PROBABLY A BAD SIGN;;; infernal affairs is still one of my favorite movies ever, even when i am watching it with chinese subtitles i don't understand so that my cousin can watch it with me.

another fucking anon meme

cough's gotten better after i went to the doctor last week and found out i had allergies i didn't know about, though now i know i actually HAVE ALLERGIES BAWWW. now my eyes hurt, but that might not be related to allergies and might be related to spending too much time staring at a computer screen.

whatever the next convention i go to is, looks like i'll be cosplaying orihara izaya from durarara!! so far we have an EXTREMELY TENTATIVE lineup of namie, celty, either shizuo or shinra (was thinking ross for shizuo and andre for shinra, but sharon likes shizuo and andre would actually be willing to pose with me, so idk), erika, anri, and mika. at the moment it's all in the "hey that sounds like fun maybe" stage, and we don't even know WHICH con it'll be at (something east coast), but... a mikado/kida/seiji/case walker would be nice (hint, hint)!

AP TIME. i have basically given up on my ap art portfolio and have just been trying to find the smallest things possible to draw that fit my concentration. just a few more weeks and then it'll be senior options time! got the acceptance email today, so i should probably start thinking about my project more.

sounds like prom drama is starting up, or has it been going on for a while? idk I GUESS I WOULDN'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT THAT BECAUSE I'M GOING WITH REBECCA~~~*~*~*~*

i don't know a thing about miyavi but it looks like i'll be going to the nyc concert in june with grace and devin, if anyone else is going or would like to go with us. amusingly it's at the same place as last year's vamps concert. ALSO VAMPS IS COMING BACK IN OCTOBER hnnnnnngh should i go

i really haven't been able to focus on anything lately, this is ridiculous. my brain just isn't functioning and i feel tired all the time and i just want to sleep forever aaaaaaaaa can't wait until aps are over, then it'll be senior options and i can stay at home and sleep and draw and sleep.

idk i'm just really tired

feels different from my usual laziness, maybe i SHOULD go see a doctor fffff

TO DO:
- ap art
- senior options essay
- senior options story brainstorming
- creative writing short story
- study for calc
- aria parts
- calc project ideas
- finish the alienist
- old art requests, art dump when aps are done

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF WELL IT LOOKS LIKE I ACCIDENTALLY LOST THAT WHOLE GIANT TL;DR KONAN POST I HAD BEEN TYPING UP FOR LIKE A MONTH so i'm not even going to bother with that anymore and just say i had a good time and stuff.

i think i got my once-a-year cough early this year. usually it pops up around october/november, though i suspect this is just an extra cough and i'll be getting the same thing again when october rolls around. i've been told that i sound like i have tuberculosis kzfhlxjkv

up to the fifth season of criminal minds, almost done catching up to the current episodes. IT'S BEEN LESS THAN A MONTH hyjkasdlfhsdjkf THIS IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING WITH MY LIFE. but yes, this really is my perfect show, serial killers and blood and gore and all. whenever someone dies fantastically it makes me happy inside. hopefully i'll be all caught up by this week, and then i need to finish umineko, catch up to durarara, watch evangelion, mononoke, ef, lost, leverage, the mentalist, and like 200 movies.

also need to brainstorm ideas for my senior options project (drawing a short comic but i don't have a story idea yet) and my calc project (any interesting math topics i could make a presentation on?)

also need to start rushing on ap art pieces and maybe post that art dump i wanted to do and also mix samurai heart and record aria parts and i think i will make a to-do list tomorrow

i make myself sound extremely busy but i have actually been spending most of my time sleeping/playing minesweeper/organizing my music library

keiou gakuensai today -- didn't stay too long and didn't do much there, but i got to see ikki and jun again which was nice.